But I’m sad more than anything. My feelings are hurt and I’m let down. And I’m just using anger to cover up for that. That is not what you do to your friends. And why that timing? I don’t understand. 

And you. stop it. You’re confusing me and making me think too much. I don’t like you as much as him^ but yet you’re the one making me happier lately. 

Honestly, I’m confused. Input?

Also, if that’s what this is…. And what that is…. Oh choices.

“You make me happy, whether you know it or not
You make me happy, that’s what I said from the start
I am so happy, knowing you are the one that I want for the rest of my days
The rest of my days
You’re all of my days”

~Nevershoutnever

He’s so supportive. I love that guy :)

no. just no. 

I was able to assist in shooting a wedding with probably one of my very favorite photographers… i have admired his work since I started taking pictures, and also the fact that he is only a couple years older than me and runs a $120,000+ a year business. So, basically it was a dream come true, and a validation of my work, which doubtful me is always so in need of. Well, after taking pictures with all of his equipment, which would be any photographers dream, and showing them to him, he said I was one of the best assistants he has had! Crazy!!! 

That was when I realized that I could do this. I really could be successful. I could have a career in this. 

I also realized that I enjoy it…. I know that sounds strange, but I really haven’t been enjoying my job lately… But I think it is because a) i haven’t had the right tools and b) i’m not passionate or enthused about it anymore.

So i want to work harder, I want to invest more. 

I am excited at what the Lord is going to do through this :) 

I can’t do it.

I just want to lock myself in my room and cry and sleep my way through tomorrow.